One of the reasons why I quit writing stuff because I always ended up typing "Had -this many- students today. Tiring day at work" kind of drivel. Ugh. Worthless.
Anyway, I'll try again.
But for now, here's a link to a tumblog that I'll probably webexploring in the next couple of days or so:
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Been working to achieve my first goal for almost 5 years now. Been one helluva ride. Also, you know what they say? How things don't always work out the way you want them to? Quite true. You have this "dream" version that you have been playing over and over in your head (furthermore edit and manipulate all you want without any real consequence) and then there's the reality version. If you're lucky enough, the two will be fairly congruous.
What's interesting is that when it's delayed gratification or when a dream that takes time to achieve, what some people would call disappointment (that is to say things that were not part of the plan, as it were) feel like mere, negligible bumps on the road. You learn to kind of lean comfortably into what is real and appreciate what you actually have (or attained thus far). Some people call it "settling for less" but I don't see it as such.
This period of waiting and babystep-ing my way to a goal has had an interesting effect on me. Because I have not gotten what I wanted, at least not fully YET, I've had time to ponder how I would feel if I do not achieve the goal at all. I've had many a what if it all goes to shit-type moment that everything little thing I get, I celebrate about. A happy, healthy way of looking at things if you ask me.
I speak of goals because after this current one, I'll be planning my trip to NYC. I JUST HAVE TO SEE AND EXPERIENCE NYC for myself. I HAVE TO.
Writer Thomas Wolfe once said "One belongs to New York instantly, one belongs to it as much in five minutes as in five years.”
Goosebumps. I have to get myself there, by hook or by crook. I also want to be one of the ones Thomas Wolfe spoke of.